wait

I LOVE YOU!
im not going to lie i do.
and you wanted the simplest things
but i didnt give them.
sure im a bitch to you.
how else am i meant to sya i love you?

if i could i would give evrything up for you.
i kinda almost took bullet for you.
but id take so many more.
id do anything for you and everything
because i love you
because i guess i dont feel depressed as much i dont get upset as much
i guess im pissed off because you make me smile and make my heart skip beats and make me lose my breathe
because your wanted by me and her.
because in some way ill always be second (:
but i love you too much to care about anything anymore
because i gave up on my family just so i could talk to you.
shh! is what my friends tell me they tell me if youre my only everything then why do i walk out with Tayla when i might not come back.
because i feel like you dont want me back. like you dont want me at all.
but if im wrong then why not tell me?
id tell you.

i do tell you.
your wrong chris you are everything and all i have left to lose
iloveyou

chris.

whenever i talk to you i take a deep breathe

i get myself ready for the moment that is happening now.

so scared of losing you ipush myself to limits

i try and i always will try to be what you want.

because your the only peson i say i love you forever to.

im crying writing this because you gave up before me.
i never knew if you loved me
and i never willl i guess.
ut in the end
your not the reason i wanted to go.
your the reason ive stopped.
because the though of not ever talking to you.
cant be put in words
i know you want nothing anymoe.
should i just let you go?
even though i dont want to?
should i just give you what you want and go?
maybe.
all i know is
i love you Chris

silly little sun

so the sun was setting and it looked so gorgeous that i had to capture it.
only to remember my camera was broken
so i ignored that and took the pictures.
i dont know wht they look like.
i hope they look good otherwise i shall cry.
well i miss chris's voice.
i know right kinda cheesy?
but its kinda of what makes me smile.
though he doesnt really know yet.
My kitty has been sleeping with me for the last week.
i almost forget that he is there.
i am moving to brisbane next year (Y)
i am going to buy a baby kitten when im there (: it can steal all my attention from chris.
oh yes Chris almost forgot about him (:.
i love him (Y)
Shh!.
i didnt expect to fall in love .
but then again who does?
In the end blog i shall fiish this because im wary (:
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wow (:

today when i was with cass
it felt weird.
i felt like i was all better
like nothing was going wong
like nothing was going to go wrong
i felt . . .
i felt like a child
it was amazing!
we bought glitter and blew it all over the place.
we spilt glue all over the floors
we drew on the shelves with crayons
we put bras on our heads
w even rode skateboards and fell into a ball pit.
i love Cassie De Young very fucking much