wait

I LOVE YOU!
im not going to lie i do.
and you wanted the simplest things
but i didnt give them.
sure im a bitch to you.
how else am i meant to sya i love you?

if i could i would give evrything up for you.
i kinda almost took bullet for you.
but id take so many more.
id do anything for you and everything
because i love you
because i guess i dont feel depressed as much i dont get upset as much
i guess im pissed off because you make me smile and make my heart skip beats and make me lose my breathe
because your wanted by me and her.
because in some way ill always be second (:
but i love you too much to care about anything anymore
because i gave up on my family just so i could talk to you.
shh! is what my friends tell me they tell me if youre my only everything then why do i walk out with Tayla when i might not come back.
because i feel like you dont want me back. like you dont want me at all.
but if im wrong then why not tell me?
id tell you.

i do tell you.
your wrong chris you are everything and all i have left to lose
iloveyou

chris.

whenever i talk to you i take a deep breathe

i get myself ready for the moment that is happening now.

so scared of losing you ipush myself to limits

i try and i always will try to be what you want.

because your the only peson i say i love you forever to.

im crying writing this because you gave up before me.
i never knew if you loved me
and i never willl i guess.
ut in the end
your not the reason i wanted to go.
your the reason ive stopped.
because the though of not ever talking to you.
cant be put in words
i know you want nothing anymoe.
should i just let you go?
even though i dont want to?
should i just give you what you want and go?
maybe.
all i know is
i love you Chris